You gotta want it.
You gotta work for it.
You gotta suffer.
Do it alone.
Strive to thrive.
Web-camming keeps you afloat, but it’s the real hard work that is going to last.
I’ve been doing a lot of that “hard work” stuff lately. (Yet I’m hardly even scratching the surface of the dust on the hard work.) Building knowledge and experience. I’m growing. I’m getting there.
But damn this webcam income is so easy and hard to beat.
I gotta figure some shit out.
I want to run, run, run, but I have to just jog and take it easy.
I want shit to be done NOW. But then I realize I need to relax and let things fall into place.
Life is a real fucking lesson ain’t it?
Slow down, appreciate the moment, and stop wanting more. But what would I be, WHO would I be if I wasn’t constantly trying to get better, stronger, faster, smarter?
Sick to my stomach, I couldn’t figure out where it came from. Now I know. It’s change. It’s a roller coaster. It’s life warning me that this is it. Time to go. Time to move on. Suck it up. Live smaller. Spend less. Save more. Find happiness. Quit the bullshit.
How are you making it? How are you getting by? What’s making you tick? What makes you work harder? Why cam if it’s not for something bigger and better?
You MUST want more. I do. Wanting more has always got me into trouble up until now. Now I’m finally channeling it into my career, and it’s going my way. It’s turning into something bigger and better. And will keep growing, as long as I buckle down and stay there.
Pursuit of happiness…happiness is a fleeting emotion, not a destination.
Dreams change in life. When you get them you realize, “This isn’t what I want. This isn’t what I need right now.” I thought I wanted that beach house, that lazy life of nothingness. I don’t. I’ve changed. I want more. I want activity. I want socialization. I want… right now.. I want a big city. Big lights. Experience. Culture.
Maybe later. Much Later. I’ll want something like this quiet town. But right now, I’m young. And I need something else. I need experience. I need LIFE.
So if you’re a girl reading this, cuz you googled webcamming, just remember what you want at the end. If you want to be a teacher or work any government job, forgettaboutit!
If your anyone else reading this, go get yours. Go for “Rome.” Go for your goal. And don’t let any ONE or any THING get in your way! Get it.